Unforgettable, thats what You are

Its a New Year, a time of new beginnings and new experiences in life. Lately, i've really been at a lost for words and nothing much seems to make me ponder about it for a long time, except for mostly the word of God and through meditating His word. I guess that at some point nothing else much would matter except His divine word.

Looking back at 2005, it was a year of much change. God has been moving and doing alot in my life and in YC, this year alone, i've really learnt and dealt with alot. I'm no longer bitter and angry at many things and people (oh God help me everyday) and my relationship with people have become better, for example getting to know people like Tany, Jiahao, Bassie, Brian, Edward, Stacey, Joette, Reg, Jeannie and lots LOTS more better. And best of all, with my own family at home.

The year gone by has brought many uncertainties too, but i thank God for His ever guiding hand, even though sometimes i cannot see it, i know it was certainly Him doing all the work. Thanks alot Daddy! I need more revalation on where to go next though.

Another thing that God has dealt with is how i see myself, i used to be depressed about alot of things, thinking too deeply about everything, and sometimes being overly sensitive. I think that i've been dealing with my identity for a very long time that even when God dealt with it, some people still kept thinking that i was struggling with it. Hehe, but maybe God is telling me not to go back there and that I AM FREE!! thanks simon. It was through constant prayer and counsel from brothers like Jiahao and Ian and Don and afew others that made the difference cause every single bit counts. Thanks guys.

God is also preparing me and slowly pushing me towards the deeper end of the pool. I noticed that He gave me bigger challenges and issues to help others deal with, and slowly raising me to be a leader, helping me see the false humility that constantly plagued me. Not saying good things about myself etc. sometimes just for affirmation from others.. well thats what a identity crisis can potentially develop into... so don't ever go there. God also gave me many dreams... alot of them seem to link up to a point. He first told me in a dream that i would be a great leader one day (of course at that time i thought it wasn't going to be) and that the times ahead are going to be very dark. I've been having lots of dreams with dark skies.. and that people i see live in fear of someone or thing. I pray that if it is true, and when the time comes there will be a strong army of His that will fight against the oppression and the darkness.

On a lighter note, 2005 has brought about a re-discovery of some of the talents that God has given me, I first wrote a poem when i was quite young, the most memorable one was in primary one where i even won a prize for my Jazzed up version of "hey diddle diddle" the nursery rhyme. Throughout the rest of my life up till now, i sort of wrote poems quite sparsely, but somehow looking back now, i sort of knew that it was there. And so in about June i began to write more and more, starting with a poem that He inspired me to write - in quite a distinct fashion, it was very personal as if He was speaking through me - wow. Thank you Lord. Well partly also quite an engima on what gave me the idea to write it. But soon after followed quite a number. Maybe i am to go into poetry but i still have much to learn (hahaha but i can use it to encourage and bless others!)

So 2005... wow has already gone by... reminising, it all seems like yesterday that 2005 began, partly also because i can still remember the first day of it. Thank You Lord and King and Daddy for such a wonderful and splendid year. You are indeed Awesome.